Why my love life suck?

Why my love life always suck?
I really dunno why...
Why everything seems so beautiful at the start....
But yet so awfully painful during and worse in the end...
Things just seems so beautiful at first...
But why good things always need to end...
Can't it last... I just dun understand...
Dunno why am I writing this...
Maybe cos' me and her gonna end soon.... real soon...
So much pain... so much grief...
I just cant bear it anymore...
Maybe like what she said... we are a mistake from start...
Never should we started anything....
All was a mistake all along....
"Beautiful Mistake"
Sigh...
Guess all my love life was a mistake all along...
Maybe I was send down by god to suffer from love...
I guess am a god of no love at first...
But fall in love so got kind down to suffer from love so I could no longer love...

"OH BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE"

Maybe we never should had met in the first place...
Maybe I shouldn't fall for her and chase after her...
Maybe everything will never happen if I never wanna talk to her...
Sigh....

But I never felt so happy with her around...
Never smile so much before knowing her....
Never played so much before...
Never laugh so much before...
Never felt loved before...
So much never that I couldn't think of...
Really wish that everything will not end....
Wish time could stop....
Which is impossible...
Sigh....

So much pain so much grief...
Pain that everything gonna end soon...
Grief that I've never been up to expectation....
Sigh...

Felt so demoralized about myself...
Never a good man for anyone...
I shall be alone forever... Shall never love...
That's my 2008 resolution...

"Never Love Again..."

"Oh Beautiful Mistake..."

So much to say... so much to express....
But so much mixed up feeling... till I dunno what to say...

Feel like giving up and end everything...
Yet I can't bear to do so...
Am such a loser...
Sigh...