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No one to talk to me today...
Felt so lonely again...
MOOD SWING!!!
Actually not really mood swing...
Something just happens all the time to me...
I can't endure it any longer!!!
Should blast out in laugher or cry?
Feeling seems so mixs up inside of me...
Feel like shouting out now...
What's wrong with this goddamned world!!!
What have I done wrong to deserve this..!!!
Okay... I couldn't do that now...
Am home... Mum will bring to woodbridge if I did it.
Sigh...

Seriously am just so damn fucked up...
I don't know why...
It just happens all the times...
Am I in the wrong? Am confused...
What have I done...

Since secondary, once I found my group of true friends...
I've always tried to entertain them, listen to their problems,
have fun together, etc...
I've been so good to everyone around me...
Never fail...
What I get in returned...
Negligence... I'm been neglected...
Am always the last one to be informed about things...
Or not even informed till I asked!!!


Today there's already a few incidents...

1. Gathering by BMTC section at marina bay on sunday.
I wouldn't have know if not for Kenny who actually asked me...
The reason of me not knowing is forgot to call me...
All but me... why just me? Why am I the one leftout?
Obviously am not even in their heart!!!

2. I only got to know of tomorrow's JB trip...
I've been asking weeks ago...
Only today then I know about it...
Plus am the last one again...
When everyone else know of the date and time and venue...

3. After getting IC. The plan next I wasn't told too till I asked...
Again everyone know it gonna be movie...
Again and again and again...
Am the last...

List would never end if I don't stop...
Guess I should stop...
Just that...
Really don't know why...
What I've done???
Am always the person who try to inform people about things once I know.
Event time venue... Even cancellation...
There's even times am not known of cancellation...
Argh!!!

Another thing is why no one ask me out...?
Am so free at home rotting...
People just go out with themselves without even calling me...
Asked them... Replies: " You won't wanna go one la..."
How would you know if you never asked?!?!?
Obviously they don't even care about me...!!!

Argh!!!
Why my life so screwed?
Why my life so damned?
Why my life so fucked?

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P.S. Never appreciated...
This is why I hate this world...

Mr LoneR walk this earth alone...
Would you acknowledge me if I love you?
Would you love me if I love you?