most posting...

Today is my most posting...

I don't know why...

Maybe there's alot of things I wanna say...

But I don't know what to start from and how to phrase them up...

Sigh...

2007 is really a different from 2006...

2006 is much simple and quiet...

2007 is really a difficult year...

Just the start I already have ups and downs...

Guess its a test for me...

a test of many many things...

I must pass this test that is been set for me...

Cos' its for my survivor and well-being...

and it will allow me to become an actual man...

I'm just a young man without enough experience

in life now...

So no matter what I must pass this test...

in order to become happier and a better man...

I wanna change....

I really wanna change...

Cos' I hate myself for being too concern and caring

in the end ended up as irritating pest..

I hate myself for being too quiet and let opportunities fly away...

I hate myself for being too straight forward in words...

I hate myself for being so poor that I couldn't affors

all the stuffs I want...

I wanna change....

I wanna become less concern and caring so I won't become irritating...

I wanna become more outspoken and grap hold of all opportunities...

I wanna become less straight forword in words so people won't

think that I'm complaining when I'm not!!!

I wanna become richer...

YES! RICHER!!!

I will work my ass hard enough to become rich!!!

So I could afford whatever I want...

And don't need be thrifty and become known as stingy!!!

I'm just THRIFTY!!! NOT STINGY!!!

Its hell of a 2 different things...

I save and GIVE!!!

Not save and KEEP!!!

Sigh...

Until now... still no one understand me...

No even my friends of 10 years!!!

Sadly...